Current mood:	curious
Current music:	Linkin Park - By Myself

Me, Myself, and I
Life is full of so many questions. Many of mine are: Is he thinking of me? Who do I like today? What will I have to worry about today? Will something bad happen to me today? Mabey good? Why is there so many questions I ask everday?
I have a simple life, and being a newly turned teen-ager, of thirteen, I am a very complicated person. I find it hard to keep people close to me unless we automatically click. I have a weird way of running my life, such as everything has to be in order! Or to hell with it, I don't care where everything is. One day I am quiet and stupid with a boring voice and the next quite perky and hyper and preppy. It gets annoying to everyone, because I know I am crazy, I belong in a mental hospital. Where no one is wanted, such as myself.
I fell in love with a boy. Not exactly parent-approval material, but he's a great guy. But a few weeks ago, I met another guy. He is three years older than I, but I care for him deeply even though I haven't heard from him after the day we kissed. I learned so many things last night that I cannot say on here where people can read, I wrote it in another post in my private journal. I am very introverted, as you can see. But I must say, I learned things about the guy I just met that I know I'm not even suppose to know half the stuff.
I love to go to sleep. It makes me feel so much better because I can rest and not worry what will happen to me at 1 o'clock in the afternoon the next day. Will someone die? Will I die? Will I get hurt? Will I get yelled at and screamed at? Will I get kissed unexpectantly but that special-somebody? Will someone say "I love you" to me? As you can see, too many things run through my head that I shouldn't even worry about. I can be deep, right now for a young woman, I seem childish. THese are all things everyone asks, but to me it's so much more because I fall in love too easily. It's not fun being in love when you know the person you love doesn't love you back... But please, what I have to hold onto right now means the world to me.....
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"Life's a bitch. And then you die."