Current mood:	flirty
Current music:	The One - Blu Cantrell

I'm so mad at myself...
Last night was wonderful! I went to the GW game over at the stadium, and my boyfriend AND my best friends were there and some of my other good friends so I had so much fun! I'm mad at myself for a lot of reasons. I held Justin's hand most of the time but I guess he thought I was ignoring him because I was really quiet and talked to Alisha or Marjorie the most.. but hes so damn quiet! But anyway, around 10:30 the fball game ended and Justin took me in his arms and hugged me and was about to kiss me but I didn't know what to do! But then he brushed his lips against my cheek and took off! I was looking for him so I could actually KISS him but I couldn't find him! Now he's like.. distant sorta. He's not online and I'm too shy to call. Ahhh I'm so stupid! I wish I could just pick up the phone and dial that number and talk to him.. Or be back in that moment when I would have kissed him. The thing IS is that Chase and Joey and Palmer were standing RIGHT there and Chase would be on my ass for the rest of the night if he saw me and Justin actually kiss.. Oh, I don't wanna fall in love again, well not yet anyway.. Dear God HELP ME!!