Current mood:	creative
Current music:	Orpheus in the Underworld by Jacques Offenbach

I have a lot to write.. So I'm gonna do it!
Since no one reads this, it doesn't really matter.. I need to keep track of my life.

So.. Charlie lied! Ha, I was so surprised. He is now going out with Alisha. You know, the funny thing is.. I thought I would be "Oh my GOD SO CRUSHED" and teary-eyed, but frankly, I don't care. I could seriously care less. I realized how badly he was treating me and I feel like I have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I ALSO realize, I am NOT ready for commitment to ANYONE at ALL. Ha, so be happy, single, free.. yeah im gettin sex other places (okay dont ask).
Um.. what else?
Oh, Bender got arrested. What a DUMBASS! Stealing a damn skateboard in front of like 20 other guys. Smart, huh? Well, he deserves it. He got suspended for 2 weeks and is on probation for 6 months (i dont want to meet his probation officer - hes been on pro. b4 this). You know - I have no idea what Tia sees in him. God forgive me, I love her to death, but she's so blind and stupid when it comes to boys. Every guy she has ever liked only gushes on her at first because shes "so skinny and so pretty." Yes, she is pretty, but also, those guys are 100% assholes. I've met them before and had the same thing happen to me. No thanks.
Well.. I am on another of my crash diets. I've gained weight a lil around my midsection so i decided ill lose about 20 or 15 lbs and weigh 90-100. I cant believe I weigh so much right now! its disgusting. Ive been working out like mad, but I guess the fact what ive been eating doesnt really help does it..
Anyway.. my broken toe bleed so bad yesterday. I went running (well tried) and when i came home my sock was all bloody and i took it off and the toenail wasnt gray anymore! I was so happy. Well, today it's gray again. Yay..
My ex called me last night. I was mainly thinking "Why is justin calling me?" but i didnt pick it up because i was babysitting. I'll call him later.
Ooh.. I have my future planned out. I want to be a fashion designer (I just got my portfolio - im so proud) or I would love to go into advertising. I'm very competative (can you tell?).. ANd I want a damn BMW! More than anything. MY first big paycheck (I'll probably work at Lerners or Express as a first job.. thats boring) is going towards that car. Since everything else I get goes towards college. Exciting! Ah, I dont want to grow up. I need to chill, honestly.
I have been painting all day. I did a pretty good job I think. I painted two little clipboard things because I was bored and then I made a pretty picture. Lol, that sounds gay. But anyway.. I found all my oil paints and was so happy I just started painting. I have a big posterboard and I'm going to find something to paint on there. Mabey the eiffel tower or something.. and old picture. I'll just be creative and hang it up somewheres.
Oh LORDIE! I LOVE OFFENBACH! I was listening to music on TV (i have satellite.. yah) last night and i was listening to this song im listening to now (thats a mouthful) and i was like Orpheus in the Underworld? The entire song is very lively and energetic and has fabulous crescendos and decrecendos and colour.. and the ending is the music from Spectacular Spectacular! I thought it sounded familiar when I first saw Moulin Rouge and now I know why.. Ha, I'm an idiot. Well..