Current mood:	mellow
Current music:	Toni Braxton - That Somebody Was You

I haven't been here for a few months..
Oh, my God! I was just reading everything I've written before, from March back on to 2002. Mon Dieu! I have changed so much! I was pretty stupid, lol. Well, not a lot's happened. I'm kind of in a sticky situation right now, though.. I want to write it down so I don't forget anything, considering my very short memory. Well, I'll get to the point quickly, I met Brandon from Oregon on-line today. He is a great guy and I'm into him so far, as he seems to be into me. But there is one little obstical: my best friend, his ex-girlfriend. Amanda. She has her boyfriend and yet it seems she's content on keeping me from getting anywhere with any guy she's ever been interested in. *Sigh*. I love the girl as my own family, since she is just about, but I'm jealous. For once in my entire life, I am jealous. And that doesn't happen to often.. Brandon & Amanda really were in love. I can just feel it. And the sad thing is, I want to change that! He still loves her.. and I'm probably going to be caught up in changing that fact. I'm getting selfish here, I understand. I don't really know what I'm trying to say. Amanda has much more experience with guys, and I think that's the reason I'm jealous. I always get closed up and silent-like around guys I actually want, which is really awful. Merde! I just want to hit something..
Well, anyway.. I'm so excited! I couldn't sleep because I'm all hyped up!! My brother, whom I haven't seen in three long years, is coming down in the morning!! He's on the road right now, on the way to Cali!! He should get here around 8:30-9 or 10.. Hopefully early!! Oh, I'm nervous and everything but the anticipation is killing me. Fourth of July is going to be really awesome this year.
And.. I want to start taking ballet. My mum keeps "forgetting" to call the dance studio to sign me up. Shoes are 50$ at ASA, remember. I need a black leotard and white ( i refuse to wear pink!) tights... Okay, well I need to go pray on that, too.
Good night!!